Nicole Evangeline Lilly is a Canadian actor and a well known author. She acquired a popularity for her first leading role as Kate Austen in the ABC series Lost, which bought her a nomination for the Golden Globe Award for Best Actress in a Drama Series and won her a Screen Actors Guild Award.

Evangeline in Agony

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That smile does not reach the actresses eyes

Ant-Man and the Wasp’s Evangeline Lilly took to Instagram to open up about her rugged year. The Marvel actress was determined to inform her fans about the hardships she faced over the past year. All of her words are so heart wrenching and you can’t help but empathize with The Wasp actress while she’s dealing with all of the inner turbulence. She explained the entire scene in her own words.

The actress expressing herself

“Yesterday, as many of you said, “brunette.” Well, here she is, about a year ago today. I had such a bumpy last year, but I didn’t want to propagate all of it with you because I didn’t want to be a dark patch in your world. All I’ve ever wanted to do was put glee in the world. To add light and warmth, I didn’t want you to be having a perfectly good day and then have my post make you depressed. But I wrestle deeply with feeling that all I ever am is what I think everyone else wants and needs me to be. I often feel lonely and ignored.”

 

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Her heartfelt message

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the popular actress in turmoil

“I have always known I was powerful. Strong enough, I believed, to hold all my agony and everyone else’s also. So I kept it all packed inside, kept it to myself, and made space in there to hold your sufferings, too. Publicly, I hid and made light of my deepest traumas and smiled in the face of my most profound torment. Until last year, I collapsed. Suddenly I was forced to face my weakness and my restraints, my trauma, and phobias. I was left with no choice but to accept that I am limited or go on down a road of perfectionist denial that would, in turn, kill me.”

New beginning in her life

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There’s always room for improvement and betterment
“I am coming out of that devious place, slowly and steadily. As I start to take in the fresh air, as I start to find my new, limited footing, I feel detached from you. I feel it’s pointless to share the light when you don’t know my dark. I feel lost and disappointed about this space we share. But I question myself, would you have wanted to come along in my darkness had I shared it?”
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