Abigail Spencer rang in her 41st birthday this month with a bang. She shared photos of herself on a recent trip to Paris with her son, Roman Pruett, and friend, Jai Alexander. The trio couldn’t look any happier in the photo. But looks can be deceiving. In a recent Instagram post, Spencer disclosed how she faced struggles with her mental health after her 40th birthday, which she termed “the hardest year of her life.” It was a year that saw her going toe-to-toe with unprecedented mental and physical health problems.
Abigail Spencer on her struggles with mental health
The Grey’s Anatomy star disclosed how she had to fend off the mental and physical problems hounding her in what was “the hardest year of my life” in the Instagram post.
She captioned the post:
“August 4th 2021 (her 40th birthday), I moved into the hardest year of my life. It almost killed me, and if I hadn’t been in training for my mind, body & spirit for & surrounded myself with the most incredible community of friends & healers, I do not believe I would have survived it. I’m not going to get into the details of the events that brought about what I’m about to share, but I’ll tell you some of the emotional headlines of its effects.”
Abigail Spencer cried so hard, that she would vomit
She said, “Stress almost took me out. I literally felt like my insides were being eaten by stress. I couldn’t get up off the floor some days. Fear & loss had gripped me. Anxiety would arrest me. In the fight of my life.”
And sooner rather than later, these symptoms began to be manifested physically, reaching a point when she “cried so hard on multiple occasions that it led me to vomiting.”
She further added,
“I spent hours some days trembling while holding myself through the incessant distress. I didn’t leave the house for days. I couldn’t catch a breathe [sic]. Everything felt so hard. At one point I thought I was having a heart attack. I talked to a cardiologist & he said I wasn’t having a heart attack, that my heart was so broken & I needed to be held.”
On how she finally coped with the issues
But after coming in contact with her “healing community” Spencer experienced a shift in her energy, an experience which was essential in her dealing with her mental health.
“I scheduled my grief & physical care like it was my effing job. Because it was. And then…more light came in. And every day something or someone would come along to be a warm glow. I started to get my sense of humor back. I remembered that laughing was an option.”
Even supportive fans, who have someone’s back, can go a long way in helping the celebrity deal with mental stress.
She said, “My wish for this new birth year is to bring laughter, joy, fun, silly, flowers, dance, abundance, love, ease, magic, presence, seen-ness, being-ness, puns and peace into the world.”
She said, “And I’m so proud of myself. For not giving up.”
And the Suits star hopes that her experience can be a shining example for the people around her and her fans.
We should never lose heart, no matter how bleak the situation seems to be.